The After…that sounds like the cool party you have been invited to…the one that only selected people would have heard from…the one you attend still slightly – or completely- under the effect of legal or illegal substances…

Have you already tried to figure out what your perfect day would look like? Or am I the only person on this planet constantly asking myself useless questions 😊?

Oh WOW…I haven’t written in such a long time that I almost feel ashamed about it…But no…I then make that feeling quickly fade away…I did not want to put myself under any pressure…

Samples of my crazy brain’s thoughts from the diagnosis and through the 6 months of chemo treatments…

Part I - Sunday 9th of June 2019

Last night…I wish last night was wild and crazy…or passionate and intense…even funny and light…maybe intellectual and cultured…but no…it was exhaustively boring and lonely…and the worst being that I realised that I am almost getting used to feel that way

I wish I could demonstrate to everyone how beautiful it feels to be alive and healthy…We are living complicated…challenging times...and I think we should remind ourselves what really matters…

I am alive!! And my PET and CT scans this week are fine!! Youhouhouh!!! And I have been going out to a new cool place in Brixton on Thursday night…first time since months that I was out inside -not sure that makes completely sense so: out of the house…inside the cool place 😉…

Oh…I haven’t written since such a long time…The last few weeks have actually been so busy…I started working again…from home…and part time…but still…and I have spent 3 weeks in the south of France…Oh God it felt so good…

Rainy Saturday outside of my windows…sunny Saturday inside my little strong body and my crazy brain! Life is definitely a roller coaster right now and I am happy to feel more on top of the wave since a week…Not sure to be able to identify what allows me at some point to bounce

Loving yourself as you are…very trendy topic…but I find that it is a subject explored quite superficially most of the time…people like bringing it up without really knowing what they are talking about…it requires to be ready to work on your feelings…your emotions…to be mature enough to understand what you are before even starting to love who you are…enough pseudo-philosophy for today!