Don’t worry…be happy!

Monday night…had a very relaxing day after a weekend in the countryside…so nice to take the time to process everything…and it feels like there is so much…too much to process sometimes…and I also need to be alone from time to time to be able to think…to learn…to move forward…to cry…to dance…to try and find out what I want to do with this new chapter of my life…

There is this quite common question: “if a little genius in a magic lamp would offer you one thing, what would it be?”

I am not sure of my answer to this specific question yet…but I think I am now quite sure about what I don’t want…no fake people around me…no constant business trips alone…no endless parties every night to forget my miserable life…not consistently prioritizing work over family and friends…not being repeatedly self-conscious…not wasting hours and hours brushing my long hair…no cheap prosecco…no bad men…no high heels shoes which are so high and badly made that they make you look gorgeous if you don’t move and even better if you keep your backside slightly out and one leg slightly bent -like in Aubade lingerie advertisings- but that makes you straight away look like a disjointed vulgar doll once you start walking…

The perfect posture…

You know what I mean!

…No “I can’t take my holiday, I am sooo essential that I can’t afford to go away and switch off” -bullshit…just a lack of self-confidence and the anxiety to get replaced…no sleepless nights due to a high level of cortisol…no bad jokes: ahahahah NO WAY…that one was a joke 😉…

I have also identified many things that I want now…but I still can’t articulate the ultimate target...or it would sound very standard…unexceptional…almost boring…and God we know I hate boring…”I want to be happy and to make people around me happy”?...that even sounds a bit cheesy…but that summarizes my ideas quite well I guess…all my actions should target this idea of building my own happiness…not that I want to be selfish here but if I am not happy, I will never be able to make you happy guys 😊

But then…how do we define our happiness? For me…again…the spectrum is very large…what makes me happy…a glass of Barolo with a rare cooked entrecote…a walk on the beach…swimming in the waves and feeling the sea salt on my skin…a dinner with my dear friends…the one week summer holiday in beautiful Luberon with my family…an unexpected call from a friend…a passionate love story…doing something good for someone…an evening submerged into a beautiful fiction story…seeing someone I love happy…feeling the sun on my skin -without forgetting the SPF 50+ if I don’t want the crayfish effect the day after…dreaming…falling asleep with the whisper of the sea…and in the arms of an handsome -nice and decent- man of course ahahahah…a few seconds of complicity through eyes contact with an outsider…making someone feel awesome…a romantic evening…the light of the sunset in South Africa…landing in NY…a good result at my scans…finding the perfect gift for a loved one…looking at myself in the mirror and feeling amazing about it…seeing a true smile…laughing so much that it makes me cry…writing into my blog…finishing my training session…thinking of my grand-parents…falling in love…being in love…being loved…giving love…eating my bread butter and dark chocolate in the evening…sharing moments of crazy complicity with my friend…

“Mirror…mirror…tell us who is the craziest one”

…watching the sunset after a sunny day…waking up and feeling like a warrior…dancing for the entire night…discovering new places…having my nephews in my arms…finally finding the piece of clothes I have dreamed about for months…having projects…going to the market in the summer and wearing a light summer dress…going to vintage markets…preparing my broccolis with garlic…having a huge party with all people I love…smelling a fresh French croissant full of butter in the morning…

So…now I “just” need to figure out how to reach my target😊…I “just” need to find a way to live as many of those beautiful moments of happiness as I can…I “just” need to allow myself to do so…

I am in such a philosophical mood today 😉!! However…talking about philosophy -by the way, I was in love with my philosophy teacher…I am such a cliché 😊- but that was not my point about philosophy…if there one thing I am sure about now: the answer to the question is definitely “TO BE” over “not to be”…