Insomnia…
Same Monday night…but much later in the night…even early Tuesday morning…impossible to fall asleep…
…Not tired? Definitely not the reason…I have been yawning all day…
…Too much dark chocolate before going to bed? Could be the reason…
…Anxious? Maybe…
…Too many thoughts on my mind? For sure!
…Excited about the future? Definitely…
…Uncertain about the future? Definitely…
…A bit lost in our current crazy world? Definitely…never been that definitive on so many fronts!
…Lonely? I don’t think so…actually feeling very surrounded by my family and my friends…
…Feeling like I need to take decisions in the next few months which could impact my future? I think so…
…Dreaming about going on holiday and just allowing myself to relax after the last few months? Definitely…in a perfect world where the Covid would not exist…the only question would then be: where to go first?
…Hungry? Always…
…Thinking that I will feel exhausted tomorrow -in few hours- and that it won’t help my body to heal? Definitely…
…Thinking with frustration or nostalgy of all the things I miss so much since one year? Oh yes…
…Looking forward to all the dreams and projects which could become reality if I really try and focus on it? Without doubt!
…Feeling sick in my stomach thinking that I might never be able to get pregnant and have my family? Probably…maybe…definitely…
…Amazed by the nice feeling of my lion hair on my pillow? Awesome feeling!
…Wanting to travel around the world for enjoying and not for working? So crazy about that idea!!
…Impatient to try and start seeing some friends while respecting social distancing? That becomes a priority if I don’t want to become even more crazy than I am!
…Excited to receive my food delivery tomorrow evening? Of course!
…Obsessed by the idea of getting a dog who would look at me with his little dog eyes? OMG!!!!!!
…Wondering how some people never struggle to sleep? One of the many life mysteries indeed…
…Anxious to start working again very soon? Undeniably…
…Thinking that this post may be super boring for people to read? Unquestionably!
…Not being bothered by it? Definitely not! This is part of the new me: I should not always worry about what people think 😊
…Disturbed by the violence around us? Yes…even sad…and almost scared…
…Disgusted by the documentary on Jeffrey Epstein? Oh…can’t even talk about it!
…Questioning myself about the reasons why I often ended up with bad men? Yes…and working on the answers!
…Panicked to see the sunrise through the curtains and realising that I haven’t closed my eyes at all? Not zen about it…but panicked might be a bit too strong though…
…Thinking that I should go to bed and try to sleep? Without question…but so hard while in the process of WAKING UP!